Resurrecting a new dream!

As mentioned in the last post, I have been chasing this dream of having a child for so long that I am not sure if that dream is what I want anymore.

I have also let that dream take over my whole life. 

And I mean my whole life.

My marriage, my sex life, my personal life, friendships, relationships, social events, special occasions, school...

It all has been affected.

That being said, I have left my life be centered around it.

I have not been living my life for a long time. 

And to be honest, I miss it.

I feel lost and alone. And I want to take time to just let that dream lay where it is

and resurrect another dream. 

A dream to live this life I was given and find myself again.

A dream to get back to being happy and enjoying my life. 

To enjoy my surrounding and my relationships.

Has anyone let this or anyone dream take over your life?

Would you?

Would you be interested in following another blog?

I want to start another blog about my life in general. 

About weight loss, going to college, life, marriage and adventures!

Tell me what you think down below in the comments!

Thank you!!

Is it possible....

Is it possible or have I just lost all hope?

That is the question:

I am sitting here thinking. I have been chasing a dream (having a baby) of mine for so so long and it is all I ever wanted. It was something I couldn't go a day with out thinking at least once about! A dream I have spent all my energy, money, emotions on, which are all drained. I wasn't as sure of something as I was this.

But now I am not so sure about that dream.

 Is it possible for your dreams to change, for you not to want the same dream you have worked so hard to achieve or in my case try to achieve. Is it possible to finally after chasing something for so long, to be at peace that it just might never come to be? 

My husband has been by  my side and my dream has become his. Is it possible for him to feel this same way? Is this why so many marriages dealing with infertility fall apart, cause one is done chasing and the other wants to keep running?

Is it possible for this dream to come back? Will it be as strong as it was before? Is it possible that it will never come back? I guess anything is possible..But I am not so sure.

Is it possible or have I just lost all hope?

Just wanted to wish everyone who has supported me through these last

two years of having my blog. For supporting me through all my fertility treatments, my bad days, my 

happy days, and all the stories I have shared!!!

Thank You for all your comments and words of encouragement. 

Thank You All!! :o)

I hope you have a wonderful Merry Christmas and a safe & happy New Year!

May 2012 be all that you want it to be!

Happy Holidays from my family to your's!!!!

The Post Office.

I was at the post office today mailing out my Christmas cards.

When I over heard the two women in front of me talking.

Woman #1: Will you be going to your children's home for the holidays?

Woman #2: No...I don't have any children. 

Woman #1: Oh..I am sorry.

Woman #2: My husband and I tried for 10..15 years. We were just not blessed.

There was a time I would cry every day around this time of year.

It is hard not having any little one..ones to buy for.

Woman #1: Oh yeah...ummm... How is your mom?

I am thinking to my self at this point.... Why am I at the post office at this exact moment? Why 

didn't I have came in earlier or later after this conversation was over?

Maybe I was meant to hear it?? hmm....

It then got me thinking even more...What if my life is going to shadow woman #2? What if

we are going to be in that small percent that never gets to experience pregnancy?

How do I feel about that? How would I feel about not ever being able to go

through a pregnancy?